Day 7 : Trust

So elaborating on the topic of trust, I began feeling like I couldn't trust certain people today.Then I began thinking that maybe my distrust in others could be a reflection of my feelings as they relate to myself. Maybe I am projecting my trust issues onto others. A form of self sabatoge maybe? But why is it there and where does it come from? How do I overcome it? Maybe I have to start by having a little faith in myself and the decisions I make and the paths I decide to take. Maybe as it pertains to others, I should have a litle faith in my choices of people I surround myself with. Only after I can begin to trust myself, maybe I will learn how to ultimately trust others.?. Maybe my distrust in myself is the cause of my feelings of inadequacy. The "never good enough" feeling that surfaces regularly. Maybe those feelings that are harbored deep within me are the source that drives the distrust in myself and then spiral to my distrust in others so that maybe I project it out to the point where that is all I get back in return, therefore my theory ends up being right. Craziness I know, but thats how self sabatoge works. Feeling of inadequacy or mistrust are merely reflected back as to what you give out. Maybe I should work on what I give out so that I may receive what I need in return. I know I deserve a loving relationship. I know I deserve to be loved. I know I deserve a wonderful family and good friends. Its something deep within that feels like Im not enough. Im not sure what that "something" is or why its there. How do I begin to tell that "self" that I AM?